Random Thoughts...

When I first said I wanted to start writing in my blog again...I figured I could write a blog at least once a day. Well of course that did not happen. So once a day turned into once a week...and now it's just..I write when I get a free minute to write. What a shame. This blog, I don't really have anything profound to say..although...I do have some random thoughts. Some may be deep and the rest may be senseless (hey...I'm being honest). Anywho...ENJOY!!

I have noticed that men are really stubborn. So what happens when you try to put two stubborn men together to get something done...it doesn't get done. One person has to swallow their pride and be the bigger person. And I'm sure each of them has their reason to think that the other should come to them first. But if you don't really talk about it...how will it ever get solved???

I have learned that time is not on my side...well crap, it's not on any one's side. So why do people think they have all the time in the world? It seems like as soon as I turned 30, everything about everything about me (yes, I meant to say it like that) changed. Some for the better and some..well...you know. I say do everything you want to do NOW. Even if you aren't sure...start it...finish if you can, if you can't oh well, at least you tried. Hmmmm maybe that wasn't the greatest advice, but you know what I'm saying. Put your all into it, but it's never to late to figure out what you want for your life...and after you've kind of figured it out...go for it!

I saw a oil truck this morning and it said..."Got Oil" and there was a picture of a lady with a oil mustache. *puzzled look* I mean I get where they were going with that...but seriously...I would like to have seen a sign that said "need gas?" and it has a girl pumping gas that costs $2.00/gal and then they gave directions to that gas station. I'm just saying...

My friend Dford said he doesn't like teenagers...and then I thought...dag I don't either. Hmph!

I don't get excited about too much of anything...not sure why that is...I need to look into that.

I believe everyone has a bit of crazy in them. I don't care who you are and what you've never done. Let the wrong person say something to you or do something to someone you care about...the crazy is going to definitely come out.

Have you ever said something to someone like..."Ugh...I can't stand when people wear Jeri curls, that's pretty disgusting, they would never ride in my car or lay their head on my pillows." and then they say something like..."My Mom has one".....*BLANK STARE*

I was in the grocery store on Sunday looking at the lean cuisines...and this old lady walks right in front of me and stops. So I say..."look at this rude fool" (hangs head in shame...yes I really said that). Well she heard me and was like...oh I'm sorry...but could you reach up there and get me that, and then she kind of stares at me....me.."sure" *Blank Stare*

Well I'm off to the Bahamas this weekend and I'm going to try to to the mini submarine, Para Sail and swim with the dolphins. Blog and pics to follow...HA HA!!!

Simply Written

Have You Seen My Happy???

Lately, I have been feeling like I'm in a bad place mentally that I'm unable to get out of. I am a thinker; which for me can be an advantage as well as a disadvantage. Lately, it has been a disadvantage.

I know that everything is not meant to be over analyzed...I get that. But are we to believe everything that we hear or everything that someone tells us?

You know...when I see that there is a problem...I like to talk about it. I need to get it out and find out what needs to be fixed and how can it be fixed. I may not always take the best approach when going into the discussion...but I'm human. All of my imperfections I claim...I can apologize for them and move on. I can take an apology from someone else and move on. I thank God for giving me a forgiving heart and humbling tongue to apologize when I need to.

Right now I feel like I'm being tested. And I will be honest...right now...at this very moment...I'm not passing.

What I have noticed...is that around this time every year, I start feeling a certain kind of way. And I cry every time I think about it.

I have gotten to a place that I feel like everything I do or say is taken wrong.There is this feeling that I have to constantly keep proving myself and the words that I speak are always challenged or questioned. I feel like I'm waiting for the end of something...and I'm not necessarily talking about a relationship of any kind, I'm talking about this worrying spirit that seems to lurking around me right now.

I refuse to feel depressed, angry, confused or anything that is not of God. I'm alive, I'm loved not only by my family and friends but by God and that is more than enough.

Not only do I feel like I'm waiting for the conclusion...I'm waiting for my happy and I will praise God all the way to it and through it.

A complicated blog...simply written...