But shortly before I posted that status; not sure if it was last month (I'm not that great with time), but I was going through my phone and saw all of these numbers of people (men) I do not converse with on a regular basis. And by regular, I mean I have not spoken to them in almost a year...maybe longer. So as I'm going through my contacts I start deleting them. There were a few that I came to and thought...well maybe I'll keep the number just in case. Just in case what? There is obviously a reason I don’t communicate with that person anymore. If they call me then okay, but I know I will not be reaching out to them. So why would I need to keep their number in my phone or……..keep them added on my Facebook page.
There have been many…many times I have asked God to remove someone from my life because I was not strong enough to walk away. And when he shows me what the real deal is and gives me the strength to walk away…what do I do. I walk away, but keep their number or still have some way of getting in touch with them. And honestly, at some point when I’m over it. It’s not even about keeping in touch anymore. It’s because I’m NOSEY!!!! Yeah I’m nosey. Anyone that knows me knows, I ask questions and don’t apologize for it. LOL
Wait a minute, before you judge me. I know that I am not the only person that has done this. I mean it’s natural to want to see how someone’s life is going to play out. Especially when their posting status messages and pictures all over Facebook, right? I think we get to a point in our lives where we don’t necessarily want to be with that person and at some point it’s not even about trying to keep in touch with each other. We just want to see who they are dating, where they work and sometimes we secretly hope they stay single forever or never find a good job. Hey I’m being honest. I’m a Christian, but I’m human. LOL.
So I do a lot of thinking when I’m driving and when I’m in the shower. Don’t ask. So anyway…as I was driving home I was trying to figure out why is it so wrong to keep in touch with past “friends”. I mean does it really matter? So I was listing to the song “Before I Die” by Kirk Franklin and this part came on:
Love my enemies, forgive the past
and set 'em free so I can free
free up the things
every blessing God has for me
see it's for me, not just for you
I had to learn from what I've been through
I can't go through that way again
be hurt by you that way again
It's not the end
Now, I’m not calling these people my enemies, but you get where I’m going right? Hmmmmmmm…..that goes RIGHT back to my Facebook post….remember it in the beginning? Here I’ll say it again.
